The Ponderings of Dizzz

I have been soooo neglectful of my blog; i am ashamed!!! Anyway, i was in Florida with my family for the last two weeks of August. Of course Edward HAD to come along. He chilled on the beach, relaxed on the balcony, and i even took him on the Palm Beach Princess Casino Cruise with us. My husband, Brother FC, hates all that is Twilight and Edward. I think he might be jealous... But anyway, when he drinks, he is one of the funniest people alive! For a usually unhappy and generally grumpy man, it is hilarious to witness. Anyway, I had to get some Edward shots on the cruise boat. And as i placed him gently on the table in the lounge, positioned him gingerly where he needed to be, my husband decides he needs to be in the picture as well...

Edward did not appreciate sharing the limelight, and insisted i take a better picture, without husband and sippy cup. This is the one he liked the best.

Vacation was wonderful; the weather was perfect. Maybe Edward dazzled the clouds?

Side note: Just saw the newest preview for New Moon, and dear lord Edward is so incredibly hot!!!! I need to bring a napkin to soak up the drooling i will be doing in the theater!!

Happy Thursday folks! It is my Twilight Day, and I have two Pocket Edward topics for the week. He is so much fun! I carry him in my pocketbook. That is right; I freely admit it!!! I think I need a safer haven for him or he may end up damaged however. Anyway back to the blog.

Last Friday, my friend Stephanie (love the name, don't you) and I decided we needed a lunch break, since we rarely eat outside of work. Yes FC, this is the friend who threw me out of the Twilight Closet at work, but I forgave her cause she is too awesome! Anyway, since we both love Chinese food, we headed over to my favorite Chinese Restaurant, Abacus. The owner is one of the nicest people, I love eating there!

Edward had to come along, of course! He was a gentleman as always, and offered to pour some soy sauce on our food for us. So sweet! He stood there patiently waiting for the humans to chat and enjoy their wonton soups, and indulge in some Sesame Chicken/Governor's Chicken, Egg Rolls and Fortune Cookies. The restaurant staff was very polite, and did not once complain about the picture taking and giggling we were doing. The owner stopped by once and looked at Edward, but he must have dazzled him for "Joe" just asked how our food was and shook his head as he walked away.

At the end of the meal, as we ate our cookies, we reviewed our fortunes (yes I ate my cookie first ~ I was very hungry people!). Stephie's said something along the lines of "You are appreciated by your current company", well DUH!!! Of course Edward and I appreciate you Steph!! You are our work buddy! I gasped aloud as i read my fortune, Edward and I find it quite appropriate. I will show you a picture to share...

Yes that is right "We are very happy together". I think it fits PE and me perfectly!!! We must have laughed for about 10 minutes before we left, surely they thought we were nuts, but oh well it was fun.

For the second half of the blog I wanted to warn the Pocket Edward versus Cobra Commander followers to know that Cobra Commander has recruited G.I. Joe's Pocket Snake Eyes to his cause for Pocket domination. This angers me for Snake Eyes should be on Edward's side (he is a good guy) but whatev! my husband has this adversary also trapped in his packaging, so i do not think Edward will have much trouble with them, do you???? To be continued...

OK folks, movie review time. Last night my husband and I watched for the first time a movie that we have both been DYING to see for a long while now, Burn After Reading. It featured a pretty good cast: Brad Pitt, John Malkovic, and George Clooney are key actors in the movie. The preview has been in a boatload of the movies we have purchased over the past year, so we figured it would be right up our alley.

Previously on TT, I discussed the battle between Pocket Edward and Cobra Commander, and of course, our sparkly prince won, hands down! http://dizzzidev.blogspot.com/2009/07/twilight-thursday-cobra-commander.html My husband swears that if Cobra was not trapped in his packaging, the outcome would have been completely different! WHATEVER HONEY!! If he wants to believe a four inch creepy looking guy could best the Adorable Undead we all know and love, that is his prerogative I suppose.

This week I want to discuss my new Twilight Obsession, Fan Fiction. Once upon a time, I was a normal and somewhat boring (ok I am boring, so what) mom, who was oblivious to the Twilight and Blogging world. My daughter tried to convert me to a Twilighter with no success; I even refused to see the damn movie when it came it. REFUSED!!! And I love vampire movies (ok not super gory ones but Lost Boys, Blade, you get the picture), so it was surprising I was adamant NO TWILIGHT! My daughter instead went with her god-mother, read all the books, and converted previously Twi-Virgin FC to the “cult”. FC then turned her wiles on me, and it was all downhill from there. First Twilight, then blogging… NOW…

Over the weekend, I realized how much my husband disliked Edward Cullen, or Twilight in general. Now mind you, his step-daughter, wife and sister (the notorious FC), are all TwiAddicts and my hubby is really not into it. Not shocking, he is a usual man, but this story is too funny not to share.

I give you the following scenario: After hearing about the numerous “Pocket Edwards” floating around the internet and gathering attention, while shopping with our son last Saturday, my husband informs me he needs a “Pocket Cobra Commander”. Honey, what did you say??? Did you really say you need a Pocket what? Um…. Why???? He explains that pocket Cobra Commander is sooooooo much cooler than Pocket Edward could ever be. Am I hearing this man correctly? Plus he could kick Pocket Edward’s ass… Double Take… WHAT?!

“I think not!” I retort. At that point, assured he was joking, I continued my “browsing”. After about 20 more minutes wandering around Target we head to checkout. As I empty my cart, low and behold…


Dear Lord, are you serious? And you though dozens of TwiHards were loosing it? Now what to do, there is a Cobra Commander (trapped in box) threatening to take over, and no Pocket Edward to protect us….

This pic is from www.extraordinaryjulian.com

Before debuting in the USA, Julian played roles in several Australian shows/movies. He had roles in The Power, The Passion and Home & Away (Australian Soap Opera) prior to 1992, when he finally hit the US screens. Isn't he adorable? This shot is a promo picture for the Home & Away show that he starred in. That chippy looks so happy, but then again who wouldn't??? It was actors that looked like this that caused my soap opera crazy from the age of like 7 (yep I was allowed to watch that slop by my babysitter when I was a wee child in first grade peeps!

In 1992, he had a recurring role on Another World, where he played the character of Ian Rain. I bet I have seen him on the show and never thought twice about it at the time (yes yes I used to be a Soap Opera freak). Another World was not a favorite, but I know I turned it on a time or two. They are all the same drama, just with different hotties starring. Ok I am not being fair here. I did have quite a few favorite soaps, but this is not the forum for that discussion... Back to Julian.

From 1996 - 2000, Julian starred in Profiler (show) and four movies which I know absolutely zero about, so i will not mention anything but their names: Profiler, Wet & Wild Summer, Magenta, In Quiet Night, and Chasing Sleep. Then in 2000, he became an object of my personal focus in Charmed, where he played Cole Turner/Belthazar, DA/demon who is tasked with killing the Charmed Ones and instead, falls in love with one of them. Steamy...sexy.... GOD I love that show during those 3 seasons.

After leaving Charmed, he became the TV plastic surgeon Dr. Christian Troy, and as far as I know he is still on that show (does it still air?). I wouldn't know personally because as dreamy as he is, a show involving cutting open people and such ... well BLECK, and no thank you.

From a big screen perspective, his most notable appearances are as Dr. Victor Von Doom, in the 2 Fantastic Four Movies. Absolutely yummy!!! What was that invisible girl thinking? You prefer rubber man over the master of metal???? Ummmm let's truly think of the dynamic of that ... hehehehe.... sucks for you Jessica Alba.

This man has it all ladies, sexy voice, great body, and nice to look at besides. On a parting note, I will leave you from a picture from The Advocate, who had an interview with Julian in 2006. Ummmmmmm yeah.......

As anyone who peruses my blog knows (which is probably only my SIL), I had an impulse buy last week, resulting in my acquisition of the Limited Edition Twilight Jewelry Set, pictured below.

The use of this item was to be decorative only, however a request was made by a co-worker, for me to wear some of these replicas so she could gauge the "cheeziness". After gasping in horror over the terminology used to describe my treasure, I decided to honor her request and show off some of my new Cullen Crest items today at work.

Come 6 am this morning however I was cursing in anger due to the fact that my "jewels" and i wear not comparitable sized, in other words my neck is too fat to wear the necklaces properly. UGH!!! Carlisle's ring (size 10) ~ way too big! Grrrrrrr.... after eyeballing the wrist band of Edward/Emmett/Jasper and deciding hell no, my other other chance is Esme's bracelet. But will it fit my bulky wrist, i ponder.

Shockingly enough I really dig this bracelet. And since most people at work won't know what this is unless they are as sick and twisted about Twilight as I am, i may just have to add it to my regular wardrobe. Hehe... I wonder if my wrist will turn green...

Television has changed dramatically since when I was young. Once Survivor started, apparently producers realized that these reality elimination shows are a goldmine. They were correct because a plethora of them exist now. No matter what channel you turn to, you see Tyra Banks, Donald Trump, or Paula Abdul cheering on these hopeful stars in the attempt to find “The Best” at whatever they are peddling.

All of these shows share the “survivor mentality”, meaning each week some poor fool is cut and has to go home with their heads hanging low. An interesting type of program, but seriously, HOW MANY OF THESE TYPES OF SHOWS DO YOU NEED!?! Is creative muse gone to the point that this is all we can watch anymore? Does the world truly care who is the best singer, dancer, model, bachelor(ette), fashion designer, especially when 3 – 4 of the same type of “talent show” air simultaneously. Pick one of each, and call it a day please!

Although there are more than just 3 "types" of these shows, for the sake of not having a 5 page blog, i limit my critique to the top three i have thought about watching personally: talent, modeling, and dancing shows.

American Idol

Let’s start with a show that gets lots of attention, American Idol. From a media perspective, the judges rouse more attention and controversy than the contestants themselves! After 8 seasons of this “drivel”, one would think that a person would be used to the judges’ drama and sometimes cutting remarks about the contestants and each other. Ranked #1 Most Popular TV Show, according to TV Guide, really does entertain the crowds. And yes, they even have lots of talented singers who are working hard to make it in the business. The only other good quality besides the judges’ interaction is the auditions, they are HILARIOUS!


I do not frequent this program, when I do watch it I love hearing Simon Cowell’s opinions and interaction with the others. His bio on American Idol’s website states he is “Honest to a fault” and I feel that describes him perfectly! My question is “Would American Idol be as interesting if he were not a judge?” I would never tune in, personally. Starting with other talent shows such as “Popstar” and “Pop Idol” (This is where American Idol spun-off from); he also is involved in the “Britain’s got Talent” and “X Factor” So he must be the ideal talent scout!


As for the opposite end of the spectrum, judge Kara Dioguardi needs to just keep her mouth shut. Every time it opens something stupid comes out of it (on the show). On the other hand, her singing voice is amazing. Why can’t she bring some of that to the show? I have no clue whatsoever! If only, right? Wait, you may not know what she sounds like, right? If you go to her website, you can hear her for yourself. J I was blown away at first, because she seems like such a sap on the show!

Another show of similar type is America’s Got Talent which is the 16th most popular show according to TV Guide. Obviously they got nothing on American Idol. Perhaps there are too many shows to watch, and not enough DVR/TEVO time. I know nothing of this program, except for the title and what the show features. So my drivel time for this one is short and sweet.


Dancing with the Stars

Now this program uses some creative energy. Let’s have a show that features a famous person linked with a professional ballroom dancer, and have them compete to see who comes up on top! From what i have gathered as a non-watcher, a type of dance is picked for the contestant couples and they have to show what they can do with it. Kind of like a Soul Train (that might reveal how old I am, damn) but with kick. Ranking #6 show according to TV Guide, people seem to really love this one too. Well why not? This program has snazzy costumes, sexual innuendoes, interesting dance combinations and more! Having never seen it, there is only so much I can go on about it. But once again, we can vote, so we pick the top couple (along with the judges), per say.

Considering the fact that So You Think You Can Dance is all the way back as #81 on the TV Guide list, dancing with the Stars must have something good that the other show does not have? Famous people, THAT’S IT! Well the world loves celebrities, don’t we?


America’s Next Top Model

What girl does not dream of being a model one day? All girls want to feel beautiful and adored! I write about this program with mixed feelings, as I do watch it. However I think it gives girls the wrong idea about what a woman should look and act like. From temper tantrums to love triangles, this one is my favorite of the “elimination shows”. My favorite part is the photoshoots. As an amateur photographer, it is fascinating to see what they come up with for these girls to do in a shoot, although I believe lots of these shoots are designed after ones that Tyra had done personally during her career as a model.

This #7 ranked show adds a “real world” aspect, as the girls live together (and fight together) while competing to be the next “top” model. The dynamic between the models is interesting to watch but on the flip side they really can be bitches. Each week contains at least one photoshoot and a challenge, which gives the winning girl some sort of “prize”. After the 13+ weeks of watching these girls love/hate each other, the winner emerges. Why is it that out of the 12 seasons this show has aired, I have only liked the winner two or three times at most? Some of the girls are just not pretty. It makes you wonder what they see honestly.

Who was my favorite winner? I know you are all dying to know! This is my favorite photoshoot picture of Eva Pigford (is that seriously her last name ~ GADS my condolences). Yes that IS a tarantula on her hand, I get heeby-jeebies looking at it. It turned out great, and she was petrified of that spider. She had a panic attack, cried, the whole nine-yards!


And they posed the nasty thing on her hand, on her face, etc. Give the girl credit, seriously. I would NEVER, NEVER EVER let one of those creepy freaking nasties on me anywhere!!! on her face near her eyes, I am getting goosebumps just thinking about it. GO EVA, you rock!


She is gorgeous! I can’t believe she won, because she was my favorite in cycle #3 and my favorites just don’t win. Thus the reason I no longer watch.


~The last portion of this blog (on Project Runway) has been changed due to my lack of knowledge on the subject. Consider this a retractment, LMAO!

During my usual morning Internet time, I found a few nice pics from a GQ photo shoot of Robbie boy. This one made me think of the blog I wrote about the Twilight cast smoker's club. FC, my expert-blogging SIL, was extremely dissatisfied with the pic I used for poor RP, so I figured I would make amends to her and anyone else who thought the photo did not do him justice.


Is this better sis?


Please note I do not claim this as my own pic (I wish I could get photo ops like this one ~ as an amateur photographer I notice in many of his photo shoots they do not really capture Robert as well as they should be able to) , it was taken by photographer Nathaniel Goldberg, for a GQ magazine photo shoot. Funny thing, he seems to have lots of photo shoot pics of him smoking.

And I am not referring to just smoking hot! After doing some slightly obsessed research on New Moon (and doing some Robward ogling) I found some interesting set pics posted on http://www.movie-moron.com/ . After the first pic of Robert smoking a cig I gasped! Not this gorgeous icon of sexiness, a smoker??? INCONCEIVABLE! I quickly email FC (my sister-in-law) on this revelation, and a small chink in his armor of sexiness was made in my mind. (we can buff that out later of course)

After the initial shock faded, a small shrug swept me past this discovery and on to the next set frames. In the pages and pictures that followed, pictures emerged of Bella, Carlisle, and Emmett ~ and guess what ~ they were ALL SMOKING CIGS!! And here i was under the impression that the world did not think smoking was cool anymore... So in the end the moral to the story is, in your ideal Edward fantasy, would you mind kissing him if he tasted like an ashtray??? Hmmmm... I think i already know the answer to this hypothetical inquiry.

On a side note, for additional Rob love, Pattinson starred in

"Little Ashes" as Salvidor Dali. It sounds like a pretty artsy film, no pun intended. Good for you Robert! Show the world you are not only Edward Cullen! And i must say he even pulls off that creepy mustache without looking creepy doing so, lol!

It’s movie review time, from the Dizzzz perspective. Took my kids to the movies Monday, yes the 18th month old’s first. He was such a good baby and watched the movie quietly the whole time! We saw the new Night at the Museum movie. I was expecting a bit of disappointment, after all it is a sequel and they can be pretty bad. However I was pleasingly surprised with how good this movie was! Since I really dislike the main character, yes folks I am NOT a Ben Stiller fan, I am surprised when I see a movie with him in it that I like (The Focker Movies, Night at the Museum).
If you enjoyed the first movie, you should love this one! Ben Stiller was his usual goofy self (ok some people think he is funny – I don’t like him). Putting that aside he was great as Larry Daley, the former night guard at the Museum of Natural history. I refuse to ruin the story, but I will critique it as much as possible without giving any juicy details.

Our favorite exhibits are being shipped to the Smithsonian archives…. Which mean what????? Lots of excitement when the monkey steals the gold Egyptian thingie! Can Larry Daley save his clay but somehow living friends? Will Teddy Roosevelt meet General Custer? What about the girl? Who gets the girl? You will have to see the movie to find out all these juicy possibilities.

Owen Williams and Steve Coogan play our funny miniature cowboy and roman soldier, and they are funnier than ever!!! Amelia Earhart (played by Mary Adams) was sweet and likeable. The story was interesting, and I don’t think I was bored for even a couple minutes, well maybe the first few minutes, but that starts off the story so it is ok. They could have picked a more believable looking Capone, but I suppose for the amount of time he appears in the movie, we could have done worse.

The thing in the movie that annoyed me the most (and I loved even this) was the accent that Kahmunrah (Hank Azaria) used during the movie. He lisped and sounded “fancy” as my daughter used to call it. He is Ahkmenrah’s (Rami Malek) big brother, and has quite a chip on his shoulder. You’ll find out if you see it. I bet you hear some of the actor’s and say who the hell is that? Well there are some people we all know and maybe love. Robin Williams returns as Teddy Roosevelt, The Jonas Brothers are the voices of cherubs, George Foreman does a cameo appearance, and even Oscar the grouch shows his can on the big screen.

I give this movie two Dizzzz Thumbs up! Would I see it again? ABSOLUTELY! As a matter of fact I will buy it when it comes out on DVD (for my kids of course). If you want some PG rated fun at the theatre, head out and see Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian. You will be in for lots of laughs, an enjoyable storyline, and possibly even the popcorn.

I never imagined how horrible pre-teen years can be for a parent. These young people, not yet adults, seem to think that their way is the only way and GOD help you if they don’t get it. My daughter is a primo example of this. When she was a small child, she was sweet, loving and agreeable. All she wanted was hugs, kisses and some quality time. Now this once adorable child is argumentative, disrespectful and just plain mean at times. In her defense, she was spoiled and coddled. I suppose I felt it made up for it just being her and me. Now her family has been extended to include a stepfather and baby brother, plus my husband’s family. She is growing up, and with that I have made a realization that she needs to be reined in, because she seems to not want to listen to anyone of authority. But how does one balance reining in and not alienating your child?

The jealousy of her new (18 months) brother is understandable; she was always the baby and was the center of attention. She loves him, don’t misunderstand, but the underlying “hate” is there. She is trying to be her own person at the same time, so I try to allow her to grow in her own direction to an extent. I was never a really strict parent maybe that is where I went wrong. I think everyone has at least once said “I won’t be like that when “I” am a parent.” But in the end as a parent you realize you can’t always be their “friend”. Sometimes it is tough love time. My daughter has been having “tough love” for a while now.

How far is too far discipline wise? What do you do when nothing works, and the child still does not listen? Therapy perhaps?? Trying it, but it is not working all that well. (Subject for a blog another time). In today’s society we have created fearless teens. you get punished for punishing them. When I was a child, I got my rear-end beat if I was disrespectful. Oh it hurt, but it taught me not to repeat said behavior. Now if you spank a child you could loose the child due to the laws surrounding the idea of punishment. Time Outs??? Give me a freaking break here! It doesn’t work people; I hate to burst your proverbial bubbles. We have a society of disrespectful punks out there who could probably benefit from a red rear-end.

But I sway from the root of the topic. Even though she does get the needed punishments as needed, (lost her dvd player, PS2, and phone from her room) sometimes she gets nice things done for her. She wanted to cut her hair short during the holidays. “Fine, it is your hair”, I said. This is true and I hated when my mother chose my haircuts. So she has had this hip new do for a half a year. Now she wants to grow it out but…. DUN DUN DUN…. She would really like to color the tips of her bangs pink…… I am not THAT cool. Pink??? No way! A compromise perhaps? How about light brown??? How about we see how much this excursion will cost? Surprisingly, it was really quite affordable. So FC, if you read this, your niece has highlighted bang tips, prepare yourself on Friday!

Over the past 30+ years of my life, the views and opinions of what friendship truly is have matured and changed, at least from my perspective. As our understanding of people and the roles they play in our lives change, so do the expectations one has of each/all of their friends. Some of these expectations can be larger than what is really sensible, but given the emotional nature of human being, I suppose that is only natural. This blog/note is to bring to people’s attention the treasures they have in their lives in their true friends, and perhaps nudge some people into being better friends.

As a child, friends are playmates, small people whom which you spend your time and have fun being with. You share things, physical objects, with each other and make each other laugh and smile. There is not really discernment between a good and bad friend; as long as your playmates don’t abuse you physically, they are good friends.

As a youth, or young adult, the expectations and implications of friendship change along with ourselves. Your friends at this point are not only people you spend time with, but people you share your deepest thoughts and dreams with. Secrets are shared and memories are formed. At this point a friendship is much more of a relationship than at childhood. Emotional ties and barriers mold who our friends are, and in ways we change to take on small little traits of our friends, for they influence who we are internally. At this point in life there is a difference, you have friends, and you have acquaintances. People can mistake the two, even though not always until years later do they realize that a person whom they considered “friend” was actually only a mere acquaintance.

As an adult, our friendships change as we do, and again our expectations evolve. At this point not only do people have different expectations of their friends, but these expectations cannot truly be categorized, for we are all unique individuals, which is an amazing thing when you think about it. This means that although you may think someone as an acquaintance, their interpretation is that you are friends, sometimes even best friends. The closest friends are like family, and at times and in certain situations family takes a smaller role in your life.

Due to the variety of thinking, a personal view on what friendship is not “the norm” per say, but some may feel as I do. This is not to say I am a perfect friend, for I have realized over the course of my life that this is absolutely NOT the case. I have failed friends, which disturbs me deeply for that is not the type of person I ever intended to be, but we all learn from our mistakes and I have learned the hard way. But I dissemble…As an adult; a friend is probably one of the hardest jobs a person can have. But to truly be a real friend, there are several qualities someone should possess (my personal opinion). These are trustworthiness, honesty, thoughtfulness, empathy, and dependability.

How does a person deem trustworthy? Friends share and keep secrets and problems, things at times that could otherwise eat a hole in someone as they keep it inside. Having a friend means you have someone you trust to tell these secrets to, knowing (or thinking) that they will keep your confidences. Consider it a personal therapy of sorts. No judgment is made and at times crucial advice is given. A friend is a non-paid therapist, sometimes a much better one than people whom are paid to do so. Unfortunately, since by nature human beings are imperfect, some “friends” can’t keep said confidences. Does this push them into the non-friend category? Not necessarily, that depends on the circumstances. Is it done to be petty and/or vindictive, or is it out of frustration and/or an attempt to help?

Why mention honesty, when that should be obvious, and perhaps a part of trustworthiness? Some people feel that at times sugarcoating the truth is better than being honest about “little things”. Honesty, to me, is one of the most important values a friend has, and an incredibly hard thing for a person (being human) to stick to. This is why honesty is its own category, because they are indeed two separate ideas, although trustworthiness can partially be judged by whether your friends are honest or not…. However if they are not honest do you really know? Food for thought there. Honesty can hurt sometimes though, for if a friend tells you the truth, it is not always what you want to hear. From my perspective, I would prefer hearing what may be hard to hear rather than be embarrassed or hurt at a later time because my friend didn’t want to “hurt my feelings”, or “didn’t know how to say it”.

What is thoughtfulness? The first part of this is listening and remembering the “little” things such as favorite things, birthdays, interests, and dislikes. Allow me to explain my mentality on this. Ever go somewhere, see something your friend likes, and pick it up because you know they would love it? Or in the opposite end of the spectrum, ever forget a friend’s birthday? If so you understand what thoughtfulness or the lack thereof can do to a friend. It makes them think you don’t care, when you should. Although people’s memories can fade, certain things should always remain in your memory. It shows the other person that you care, and think of them, even when they are not there with you.

When would a friend be empathic? Empathy is feeling someone’s emotions, in a nutshell. This is not to say that you would actually feel pain if a friend cut their finger while cutting a bagel, but more on an emotional level. When a friend is sad, happy, angry, etc… a true friend feels those emotions as well, sometimes just as much as your friend does. It is an emotional bond friends can have. They share your pain, because they are there to support you and guide you (and keep you sane at times).

Lastly, but not least is dependability. If you want true friend, you have to be one. This does not mean you have to be where they are, but if they need a friend to talk to or someone to help them and you are available to, be that umbrella over their head on a rainy day. be a positive force in your friends’ lives.

For my closing comments I would like to thank all the “umbrellas” I have/had in my life and want to let you all know that I do appreciate every memory we have shared or continue to share. And as for the 5 people who have influenced my life the most (You should know who you are JKJNE): Thank you for being a part of my life and no matter what, know that if we no longer keep in touch, I am sorry for any hurt I may have caused and hope that someday we will meet again and share more fond memories.